The Romance I Desire

hello, you're welcome to everything fabulous with Mo, I bring you greetings from the lovers land.

I'm way behind schedule for this post, and I apologize. The network did me dirty, then I lost the motivation to write. The network is still laughing at me

I planned to do a book review, but I'm tired and lazy. So, as I share this with you, I hope you enjoy reading it.

Shout out to Eri for the funny comments he leaves on my post. it's such a joy reading them and I always look forward to it.

So, I'm reading this Chinese novel and because those people definitely give a wonderful plot, I've not been able to sleep well, and it's super long. As I keep going I get to a chapter titled "I'll give you the romance you desire." This spurs a thought process about the whole "love people how they want to be loved." I think of failed relationships on my part and close friends and most of the stories is how someone says "they did me dirty."

In my head, I'm like omo I feel your pain. Everyone does.

Even though we act like relationships doesn't hurt, we all know how it feels like to put your all into something and it doesn't go as expected.

Most times we don't get what we signed up for. Like I want romantic dates. I want to wonder what to wear when I want to see you. Dress up and be cute, but I just get random hangouts that don't even mean anything. I want impromptu dates, not meetings that feel more like a booty call. I want The excitement that comes with dressing up for a date

I want the heart-pounding thrill that comes with feeling secure and falling in love, not the pep talks I give myself every day to convince myself that I am enough.

I don't want the toxic environment where I'm mad at you and it's all I'm thinking about and days later, just a text from you, I'm over the moon.

I don't want the place where I have to compromise every time. Like I tell you I don't like this but you do and I have to adjust myself to suit you, it's draining.

I don't want you gaslighting and treating things that bother me as unnecessary. I'll probably fight blood and fire or ignore you.

I want to always choose you but I want it to be mutual. Don't tell me to fight for us. We both have to fight for so many things outside, so when it comes to us, I want us to choose each other willingly and with pride.

why does this feel like a rant? well in the spirit of valentine, I think everyone should just share with their partners how they like to be loved. As for me, I just want to be pampered and I believe Jesus will intervene.

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